Dear Mom,
I don’t really know how to start with this letter. We don’t have a really good relationship at the moment. I’m not sure if you realize that, but I definitely want to make it better. I want to be closer with you and tell you about my concerns and the parts of my life that I’ve been keeping to myself.
Don’t get me wrong I know you’re not an affectionate or emotional person I just refuse to let that stop us from having a better relationship. Another thing that’s hard on our relationship is our different views on things. We grew up in different eras of time and went through different hardships which make us the people we are now. All of which makes trying to express my emotions to you difficult for me to do. You tend to invalidate most of the things I express since you simply get over yours.
I know it’s hard for you since I’m your first daughter and child with 3 more that came along after me. You still don’t have the parent thing 100% down but you’re a great mom even with your faults. I know you’re feeling unsure and scared of the choices I make in regards to my future, but I want you to know that I got this. I want you to have confidence that you helped create the human I am today. You took all the good and bad parts and pieced it together carrying them for 9 months creating me.
I know I’ve made many many mistakes growing up and argued a lot but that was things I needed to go through. Think of it like a form of character development. That’s what I do to help me accept things a little bit better. It can be unfair or stop me dead in my tracks for a little bit, but somehow I manage to move forward. I want you to see that. I want you to have confidence and faith in yourself and me. I want you to know that you did a great job raising me. Everyone who’s seen my growth can agree with that statement.
We come from a place of struggle but there were times of happiness hidden deep in the dark times we’ve been through. Once you start to accept me for the person I am‒‒ our bond will definitely get tighter. I love you crazy lady.
Sincerely,
Avigail
This is a powerful letter, Avigail. I appreciate how open it is, how vulnerable. The desire for connection you want with her, as well as how much you want her to see you as someone who is capable of managing her own life–these are present and striking throughout. This sentence, for example, is excellent:
“I know you’re feeling unsure and scared of the choices I make in regards to my future, but I want you to know that I got this.”
I hope someday you’re able to feel the bond you yearn for.
Wonderful picture, too.
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Thank you very much. I worked very hard to express that feeling as clearly as possible.
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This was a very powerful letter. I know what its like not to have that close of a bond with a parent and it’s hard. I loved how confident you are about your relationship with your mom and I hope your bond and everything works out in the end. This was an amazing letter!
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Thank you so much! I appreciate it.
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This is a very strong and emotional letter Avigail. This touches me for the fact that a lot of us can relate to some of the points in this letter. My favorite quote that hit me the hardest was, “ …happiness hidden deep in the dark times we’ve been through.” The way your sentences are structured puts me into your story and captivates the readers. Overall great letter, you have a lot of talent as a writer. ~Malcolm Y.
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“We come from a place of struggle but there were times of happiness hidden deep in the dark times we’ve been through.”
This hit different because it’s the same w me and my pops, our connection or bond you could say, wasn’t the best. From him being locked up for some time it was tuff to get to know each other when you only get to talk face to face 3,4 times a month, fr.
This part stuck out the most because we use to live in a one bedroom apartment w roaches, but even through those times there were still good memories.
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